Previously, i was an ugly duck. Ugly means look worse than others. Ya, i mean in terms of appearance, such us style and attitude of confidence. Beside of my brain, no one my friends respect with my absence, expect my best friend. It happened when i'm in junior high school.
The story starts from the gold chance that i took in junior high school. I am the selected person of my school who can be a student of acceleration class.
From all students in level 1st JHS, i am became one of lucky 18 students. The great side in becoming acceleration student, u can finish ur study in JHS just for 2 years, faster than other kind of classes. Before i took that chance, i can life as an ordinary people who have normal life. In elementary school, all affairs can be done easily, but it can't be happened when i'm in JHS.
I looked like no confidence with my choice. and that's why i can say that i was an ugly duck. Amazing!
I had great experience when i joined this class. Home stayed in village for some days, did research in other cities, went to most wonderful city in indonesia "Bali", and many many many more.
But, the bad side came true. i can't socialize well with my peers. i can't feel free. i just had a few of friend (so bad). And many of them got mad to me. You know what i felt?? "so Stress" and unconfidence in through out life.
oke, that's just a little bit of my background. and now, i'll tell u about my experience in senior high school. went out from junior high school made me felt free. Waw i can't breath with clean air! (that was my feel). and from this school my story came.
when i'm in 1st level, i joined Theater Extra curricullar. (my father inspired me with classical drama and music, and it makes me gonna interested with drama).
in this excul, i have to be crazy first, if i want act well on stage.
every week i should to shout to make ur voice loud. every week i learn to walk well. my excul teachers always helped and taught me to be confidence person.
i have to study hard to be an artist what my teachers wants. and that way is not easy.
After long long time......... finally, I CAN became the main character!!!
What are u feeling when persons who dont respect u before, became respectful suddenly ?? what are u feeling when people who didn't u know called u ?? that happened to me after i became main character in school drama. that drama was watched by all students in my SHS ^_^
i dont expected that i can be right now. i can smile, can laugh, can walking upright, can be 'someone' after became an ugly duck.
at least i know that this is my way. Allah gift me to test my sense of patience and my thankfulness.
an ugly duck now, become better, alhamdulillah.
Some times ago, i watched an old Thailand movie titled 'crazy little thing called love'
Watching that movie like watching my life although not all of that part same with my life way...
That film taught us to work hard in achieving hope. If u wanna people around u respect to u, u have to start love ur self. :)
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